The funny thing is, nobody really ever knows how much anybody else is hurting. We could be standing next to someone who is completely broken, and we wouldn’t even know.

I'm back in Penang.I'm really really tired but I still have to complete my PTPTN application stuff. Yawn. I miss my parents. Awww.HUGS them. Sis also came back to see me today. I'm so touched. I miss them.And it really feels nice to be in my room again after 2 weeks. But I only managed to stay in Penang for 2 days. I'll be going back to KL on Sunday. =(

And yesh, I'm unstable again last night. Silly thoughts about "Cat and fishes" kept on interrupting my head.GUYS! Which gives me a really really bad headache and started crapping like a crazy girl whole night. Sometimes I really wonder....But wondering doesn't precisely give me an answer that I want. Part of me wants to know the answer, part of me just wanna shut the whole thing off. Sheline oh sheline, why are you putting yourself in such a messy state again?

I'm staring at the mess I made,
As you turn you take your heart and walk away..
-the mess i made-

Hey I'm officially in KL right now. No connection at home yet. So here I am at my bro's place this weekend updating this post. Going back to PV tomorrow. Life's a bit tough here. Everything gotta to do on my own. I know I'm a bit emotionally unstable these few days, but I'm working on it . Come on, this is just the first week right. I'll get better as days pass by. Tarc in Kl is HUGE.Like superbly HUGE! M25,M26 and M27 humans are officially in the same class which means the whole Penang Branch DEM students who's going for Adv Dip in KL are in the same class. =)

P.S : Really hope that I could become emotionally and physically stronger to face whatever silly issues that has been bothering me.

Well, weeks and weeks and weeks ago, I was like.."Nah, it's still so long.Why wanna rush?" But weeks and weeks and weeks later has finally arrived. It's finally time for me to move my ass over to KL. I was really excited to leave Penang last time but now... part of me wants to stay in Penang, part of me wants to go KL. But that part of me that wants to go KL WON. Because I'm officially leaving Penang tomorrow at 3 p.m.

My Official Bye Bye to all my friends in Penang!Bye Lakeside. Bye my lovely room.

And and bye Daddy Mummy- Sorry if i didn't really officially say goodbye to you guys(plan not to do so tomorrow), cos I'm afraid my too-easy-to -flow-tears will erm flow and you guys punya tears eventually flow as well and I'll be crying like the baby in MamyPoko Pants in the bus . So no. I don't wanna risk. Me not adventurous.

And Bye to all the kids that I've always bullied at home( Tiffany, Glinton & Gideon) and my lovely bro and sis in law.

Bye Sis and Che fu! And mei mei(Dyllis) and Dylan!

I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough. We spend too much time over analyzing, over-thinking, and overreacting. We waste too much time putting ourselves down, so much that we don’t ever stop to see that well, we are good enough. You are good enough. We spend too much time with our heads down and hearts closed; and never get a chance to look up from the ground and see that the sun is shining and tomorrow is another day.

Mirror mirror on the wall, tell me who's the silliest girl of all....And the answer is : SHELINE POH
I went RedBox with my sis in law yesterday and brought my laptop along. Well, bringing laptop to RedBox is like a MUST for me because I need it to sing Chinese songs.Yea, pinyin lyrics.Bla Bla bla. Okays, finish singing, in super high mood, but sis was rushing to her aerobics class, I quickly packed. Guess what? I left my laptop charger in RedBox.And now my pink laptop is totally dead without its charger. I'm starting to miss my pink laptop. Called RedBox. Real lucky cos they kept it for me. Getting it back on Wed.Wed is the Day! Gonna have a blast with "my laling plema lani".

And due to my "hiao-ness" i followed my sis to her aerobics class. Thanks to this my whole body was aching badly.But it was good. I sweat a LOT. But I prefer to jog. It was so stuffy in there. The smell of everyone's sweat. YUCKS.

Prema Rani was having crisis yesterday. Flying Roach.It's the "Muthafacka Roach". Yea. "Muthafacka". The cutest way to say swear word. Like "Arshhhhh whoooole". Okay I shall stop here. Like" What The Fish ".

And today---------- IT'S A REAL GOOD DAY!
Everyone passed! I'm Happpieee.

Arghhhhhhh!
Kick me!
Scream.
Roll on the floor 360 degrees!
Argh!
How do you say NO in a nice way?
Argghhh.
ISH.PUNCH!
Like a NICE "NO"..
Arghhhhh.
I'm mean.
I know
But I just dont feel like it...
Prema Rani just booked me for the whole week
I'm busy.
So Sorry.
No Time.
I'm BUSY.

I really dont understand how i could be so mean when it comes to him. I felt so heartles.

P.S: I'M HEARTLESS. STAY AWAY FROM ME! I BITE! REAL HARD!

HAPPY MUMMY'S DAY!

I love you mummy.
I promise I'll be a good girl when I'm in KL.
I won't disappoint you and daddy.
I'll call you every minute. XD. Nah..
I just love you.
I'll miss your food.
I'll miss you, tooooooooooo much.
I hope I don't run out of tears when I'm in KL.

Darn it! I could see 2 dogs down my lake running happily. I wouldn't wanna go down there and make a fool outta myself. No way. DOGS! Why do they even exist in this world? They're making my life miserable. It's so windy down there and yet I'm stuck upstairs! Stupid Chiwawa and that White the Stupid Dog.

Felt so stuffy in my room.
Gonna take a walk at my lake.
Pray hard the chiwawa's not there.
I'm really in the mood to kick it down the lake.
I'm mean.
Yesh I am.
Going to sit down there.
And let the wind blow.
Or maybe for a jog.
A jog will sound like a good idea.
MP3 MP3 MP3- Where are ya?
I need you to jog.

* cross finger*
It's just a little wish.
I wish
-I could get over with this as soon as possible-
Will my lil tiny weeny wish come true?

P.S : How i wish.......

Silly, stupid girl who get bruises easily =(

Well, farewell farewell farewell.. Everyone's been talking, planning about it for the past few weeks. And yesh! We finally make it. Though it's a bit sad that not all M26 humans can make it. Everyone had fun! With some bruises on their hands and legs, lots of photos, lots of laughter, too little sleep, too much noise, lots of food. . XD It's worth it though. Glad that this was a happy farewell.Not really a farewell la, more to gathering and reunion. We'll have more and more gathering and reunions in future. So no worries =)

Mood is definitely contagious. Plema Lani spread her Emo-ness to me ever since last night. I'm gonna miss her. Like really really miss her. And you woman. It's time to switch your mood before your emo-ness spreads.

Ever used to assign ringtones to your calls and whenever somebody calls, you'll noe it's him. But the problem is whenever you hear the song, it'll remind you of him. Well, it's silly isn't it ? But now problem solved. No more assigning ringtones. Anyone calls it'll just be "Hello hello baby u called, i can't hear a thing" - Telephone by Lady Gaga.

I'll be leaving Penang soon.Next week. That's SOON. Next Friday. =(

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.