Am i doing the right thing? I felt that it was ethnically wrong. It bugs me when i think about it everytime. It just bugs me now. I noe i won't get an answer no matter how hard i think about it. There's always limits to some stuff. Sticking to the limits now. But but...I'm afraid I'm breaking down soon. It wasn't easy.It's hard.There are moments i actually asked myself if it's worth it ? I'm not sure =( Well, why am i putting myself in such a messy state? The other party might not even have a clue about this thing.But the other party shouldn't get involve in this thing. It's MUST NOT.It'll even get messier. So no no. Let it be me against my heart battle.I hope I'm strong enough to win this battle this time.

Why do you miss a person?

It's either because you never treasured the moments when he/she was always there... or you were too happy with her/him that you became so used to the idea of having her/him around. When you finally walked separate lives. you realized that every moment spent without her/him is like, dying stars that slowly leave the sky EMPTY."

Finally 2 years passed. It was a really memorable 2 years. Well, my first impression of TARC was.. well TARC. Like everyone's first impression of TARC. It was totally different from what I actually expected.*Mix with the right humans la*. If mix with the humans that represent the 1st impression of TARC, well you eventually become one of them. I think you guys know what I'm talking about rite XD . And the communication barriers which I thought was a huge obstacles that I had to overcome turns out to be no problem at all and I improved my Mandarin! (like improved A LOT) And and M26!!! That's where the memories are from. Everyone there..AWWWWW. * BIG BIG HUGGGGS*

The Poh Family:
Regina Poh - My sissy!! Thanks for being my sissy and helping me out in everything. Huggs
Wilson Poh - My big tummy bro! I'm gonna miss your tummy more than you XD!!*Smack Smack*
Yong Jia Poh - My another tall giant bro. I read your blog. I'm not going to miss you too =)

Tan Joon Jin - YO. Bestfriend.Heng Dai. Chi Mui.Mr. En Tao.Woo Ying.Stupid Guy.Thanks for EVERYTHING. *I noe you're not afraid of dogs and cockroach.I noe you LOVE chocolate.I noe you don't play games. I noe you love to study. See, I noe you =)*

The Silly Seafood Couple:
Mimi Teoh ( The Class Rep)- My sugar sugar. Now got Mr.Yeoh d. Forget bout me d. I J.E.A.L.O.U.S. NVM. If u come KL, then we can make more babies d. Haha.Dont tell Mr.Yeoh kay.
Yeoh Kah Heng - I still remember. I'm one of your 'Female Best Friend". YO. Budddy! 3am curse =)
Lien Ren Wei Man ady Man Man. Waiting for wedding invitation card to be send to our house now XD

Suzzane Tan - Jie Jie....... Gonna miss you. And your house.Haha. Thanks for everything too. All the best jie jie.

The Couple of M26:
Wei Ling aka Ling Ling and Teoh Chee Leong - Glad to be classmates with you all. You both MUST go to our farewell party. Will update you guys if thr's any update regarding the party kay. MUST COME =)

The Tai Lou-s of M26
Tai tai tai Lou and tai tai lou - Yo Tai Lou-s!! Thanks for keeping the safety of M26. Hahaha. Come to the Farewell! Will update you guys soon =)

Another tai lou- Huan Peng- The "Diam Diam ubi berisi one" XD

Ah Neh -Hmmm. Ah Neh. Hmmm. Ah Neh. Glad that our class is multi racial =) NO la no la. Joking only. I noe you steady one XD. Nice to meet you Ah Neh the classmate.

Calvin Teh Voon Ye- Hello! Stop staring with your big big eyes ady.No more emo emo.

The duos in M26
Cheryl and Eddie- Glad to be in the same class and all the best in the future!!

The Celebrities
Yow Shi Chek - YO SC!! I love your voiceeeeeeeee. I wish i have the chance to hear you sing again...awwwww
Maggie - The dancer. Nice moves. Keep it up!

James and Jevon - All the best in your studies and future =)


* Farewell party! Update soooooon *

What am I supposed to feel right now?

Spent my weekends working for Maxis Broadband in Gurney with Regina, Mimi,Shi Chek, YJ,JJ , YKH and Calvin. One word = Tiring! I felt like I killed my own leg. And they keep playing nice songs. It's distracting. Especially the song "Sorry Sorry" by Super Junior. Currently addicted to that song.Thanks to the funny translation. I felt sick of saying "Maxis Broadband, Free Modem, No Contract" for 3 days. Well, 3 days finally passed. Fantabulous =)

I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah
you've built a love but that love falls apart
your little piece of heaven turns too dark

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
the precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
they're swept away and nothing is what is seems
the feeling of belonging to your dreams

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

and there are voices
that want to be heard
so much to mention
but you can't find the words
the scent of magic
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

Listen to your heart....mm..mmm

I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

~Listen to your heart~

And for today, went Education Fair with my beloved classmates. We're supposed to come out with our final decision bout where we're going after our Diploma.But it seems like final decision haven't been made.And some of us already decided where they wanna continue.There's a few choices for me. But a few choices is enough to give me headache.
I have a new option now. I'm considering UCTI(APIIT) for business. I know most people go there for IT course. But maybe considering their degree courses la. Another choice is KL KTAR. Study Advanced Diploma and proceed to Degree by attending their top up degree in UK for 3 months.Or if in Penang.Maybe INTI.Since daddy says expenses spend in KL will be the same as the fees in INTI.But INTI? 5 mins away from home?HMMMMMM.
*Scratch Head*
Couldnt Decide.

It's nice to hang out with your buddies from college and have our heart to heart session.
It's funny, fun , AWKWARD( for some), Nerve breaking, Exciting.....
Cause half of us was trying to be the matchmaker and make The GUY confess.
But nope. I guess he was too shy ( as always) XD
Maybe he wont do it in front of everyone.
haha. Anyways, Good Luck.
To: The Guy( I know you're reading this XD)
Listen to your heart.I know your heart's going BOOM BOOM POW now =)

Humans involved : Me,YJ,YKH,Mimi,Calvin and Jamie(part of it)

It seems as if the more we let go, the more we experience love. Love is beyond everything else - anxiety, desire, hope, resentment. Love is openhearted, demands nothing, and needs nothing. It is more likely to visit when our desires are quiet, when we don’t need or want much, and when we accept that everything we love is not permanent but is with us at this very moment.